new season

I really feel like I'm entering a new season in my life. Starting college, moving, joining a new ministry... haircut!! People keep asking me if I'm excited... but truthfully, I'm more insecure, timid, and afraid than excited. I know it's because of my fear of change. I wish things would stay the same... but if they did, how would we all grow?
And oh my goshhh, I realized there's just so much freedom in college! I need to be more independent and make my own choices... it's scary without someone telling you what to do because you're just so used to it growing up. And obeying what other people tell you to do is just so much easier than having to make your own choices. When you screw up on your own, it's even more your fault since you made the choice... am I going somewhere with this?
Anyway... I feel so lost and overwhelmed sometimes. And I know it's crucial during these times in life that you rely on God.. but it's difficult because life is so blurry and chaotic right now, you only know what you see. I've been neglecting time with God, and it's been taking a toll on me. He's my rock, my foundation... and these feelings of being tossed around only prove that I don't believe it in my heart.
Trust in Him first. Believe that He provides, that He never fails, and that above all else His will be done. Realize this, then you will feel the comfort and security of His warm embrace.

God, my hope is in You.