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I don't know how to love.

I used to think I was good at loving people... FAILLLLLLLLLLL.
I am nowhere NEAR "good"... whatever that means.
As I evaluate my "love" for others and God... I've picked up on alot of:
- selfishness
- pride
- people-pleasing
People-pleasing... sick. You know, I used to think that was selflessness... but it's really all about pride. You please others so that they like YOU. So that YOU look good.
I've also become really good in making excuses. God, I'm so pathetic. Excuses to save my ass from looking like the ugly person that I am... which again ties to people-pleasing which ties to pride. It's all connected.
It's painful when God opens your eyes to these things... so good for you... but oh so agonizing.
When will it stop being about me, and all about Him?
When will I stop "loving" in vain, and actually start loving?
When will I ever begin to live in freedom? Freedom from fear of how I look, act, and of what people think of me.
I am undeserving of this perfect love.

Humble Beginnings...

Blogging.
There's a whollleee world of blogging out there... Food, fashion, health.
This blog is dedicated to my own private thoughts, ramblings, feelings, etc...

I've chosen the name "Unoriginal Originality" because... that's basically what I am.
I'm the combined efforts of everyone I've ever known...
How unoriginal.
But I am me.
So I am also original.

Unoriginal Originality....

Say what?